fweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

bye brigger

2007-07-30T05:46:48Z

So offically I have a new lj. If you are interested in getting the username leave a comment with your email or whatever and I will gladly give it to you.

Yes, the comments will be screened so no worries about a crazy getting your email ... well other than this crazy :-D

Anne and movies...

2007-07-28T20:17:12Z

My lil sister has been visiting the past couple of days and it is crazy how much we have both changed. We have had a great time. A little bit of goofiness (like cranking out the essential Monkees, a little bit of a suds fight, and general fun stuff) and just general hanging outness. I have been incredibly impressed with how much she does things like willingly help out around the house (which is not something I remember her doing with any sort of consistency before I left) ... it is hard for me to put into words, but suffice it to say that it has been a festive couple of days.

I am thinking of starting another lj ... by which I mean I am planning to as soon as I think of a new name. I just don’t feel like brigger is me anymore ... I am not precisely sure who I am but in that sense but as soon as I do I am movin’.

I have also become much more analytical of the movies and novels I partake in. I am just finding that I really enjoy considering what our art says about what we think and how we view the world we live in. Or course what I see in someone else’s art (just like what they see in mine) may not always be precisely what they thought they were trying to say. That is one of the glorious and frustrating things about the non-literal. Even if the answer seems obvious – it might not be.... Ok. So maybe I think too much ... but what can I say - I am never bored '-)

Sweet little moments ...

2007-07-23T17:40:14Z

My pastor just called to encourage me about the little blurb I shared in church on Sunday, he said he didn't know what the future held for my multifaceted talents but that I was a very talented writer and speaker ...

Words of affirmation can be so powerful.

K. Bye.

weddings. rats. basketball.

2007-07-23T03:21:45Z

It has been a crazy but good couple of days.

I got the privilege of being in the wedding of a dear friend who I have known since my freshman english class in high school. It was a fun day. (And as an added bonus Joy took charge of making my look presentable and she did an amazing job – I could get used to that jank) – shockingly enough I didn’t take a single picture. Now that I am not using my camera to avoid interacting with people when I am around them, I am finding that I am much less of a shutter bug than I used to be.

I also got to see Rataouille with my mom and sister today. LOVED IT! So much. Especially this monologue near the end. If you haven’t seen it, you should (esp. if you have any interest in the arts). I heart Pixar – I love their movies, they do such a good job of making movies that are fun, have at least somewhat original storylines, good messages, funny quotes, and so much goodness in general.

I know that Pixar couldn’t be what they are without what Disney was and did, but I think the depth, originality, and overall quality of their work surpasses Disney.

I have officially decided that I am an Orlando Magic fan ... at least for now ...

Anne and I have had good hang time.

In fact I am going to peace so I can be well rested for tomorrow. Much love!!

Kay bye.

communication ... not my strongest point

2007-07-20T18:56:15Z

Through a series of humbling events I have come to realize that I am in fact the one (not my firends) who is so bad at communication and keeping in touch with people I am not running into daily.

It isn’t that I don’t love and think regularly about these people, but it is more a case that I find myself easily distracted or making plans during those windows of time when phone calls are welcome (contrasted with the time window from about 5ish-10ish when I most often want to call my friends most mornings).

I don’t precisely know how to address this issue ... they say the first step is realizing the problem, and I guess the second probably involves some manner of apology for sucking at life long distance ... anyway, I have to run and get ready for the rehearsal dinner. Yay for Emily tying the knot tomorrow!

a photo for bruce ...

2007-07-19T17:22:31Z

life since being home

2007-07-19T17:19:37Z

Ok, so I realize I haven’t so much updated about any of my time in Asia or my life in general lately. But the Asia update will have to wait (and in truth may not come via lj, you may have to track me down in real life to hear about it).

Since I have come home I have mostly just enjoyed the fact that I am able to sleep like a normal person (although I think I have gone too far with that and gotten a little lazy) and that I have time to really enjoy my days at a slow pace – my current morning routine is about 2ish hours of reading, and journaling, and walking and it is wonderful! In fact I like it so much that I want to start waking up at 5ish when I get back to school so that I can still have mornings like this.

In addition to sleeping I have hung out with my grandparents and done little domestic things and tried to track people down so that I could catch up on the last 6-7ish weeks of their life that I missed while I was away (some people just went all crazy and made significant life decisions and it is fun to get the play-by-play). Because of stuff going on with my family I will probably not do too much more than that before going back to school on the 9th.

Basically my goals are to get some letters sent out, make my t-shirt quilt under my grandmother’s supervision, figure out precisely what to take back to school with me, spend a few days at Dad’s catching up with that part of my family, and otherwise just stay at home, be domestic, catch up, and get ready for my last year at school.

That is all for now. I have to prepare a talk and maybe compose some of those letters. Much love!

back from my wanderings

2007-07-08T08:26:36Z

I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!

I spent all day yesterday trying to fight the jet lag and eventually gave in at about 7pm and then woke up at 1ish way too awake to go back to sleep ... maybe I can make it until 9 or 10 tonight - that would be amazing.

My summer was amazing! I learned so much about myself, my relationship with God, people, culture, life ... everything really. I still haven't sorted it all out. I was planning to spend yesterday reading my journal and processing but I feel like if I sat down to read I would just fall asleep (again I shall curse the jetlag) so I think maybe I will do that today.

I am finding it hard to readjust to my life here. I miss the family I had with my 14 other teammates and I miss pretty much everything about life there (except maybe the lack of sanitation and mexican food) but I have only been home for one day (and it was kind of a wierd off kilter day at that). I am excited to be able to go to church in a few hours and I kind of wish it wasn't so dark so I could go on a walk. I may do that anyway. Regardless, I think I need to get away from the computer.

I love you all and miss you and want to hear what has happened while I was away.

brigger @ 2007-05-18T22:18:00

2007-05-19T02:19:04Z

hey I leave on Sunday and I really would like adresses for my friends please.

I won't be online again until Jul.

ramblings, a creed, and a request for contact information ....

2007-05-14T14:08:58Z

Somehow I find myself feeling just as stressed and overwhelmed now as I did while I was still in classes. I guess this indicates that my haggard feeling of not being able to get all my stuff taken care of extends deeper than my course load (a supposition that is validated by the realization that I took less hours than I think I have in a very long time and yet somehow I was more stressed than ever before) but I sitting here and dwelling on how overwhelmed I am will not in fact do any good, and it isn’t really the reason I meandered over to lj for the first time in forever (yes, I have finally gotten to the point where I am too busy to be online much).

I wanted to share something from yesterday. While I was at church they were recognizing this year’s confirmans with a little slide show (since we have so many services they don’t actually bring all the kids up to the front anymore) but during the last service during the time that is usually reserved for reading one of the creeds, rather than reading one of the old greats, they chose the one written by the confirmans.

Apparently what they did was have each student in the confirmation class culminate the whole thing by writing a sort of personal creed about what they believed. Then they took one line or so from each personal creed and created a joint creed. Bear in mind that although this may have been assembled by adults, it was in fact composed by middle schoolers ....

The Creed of the 2007 Confirmation Class

I believe God has a purpose for everyone and that no one is worthless in His eyes. I believe that God is love and that we should share in His love. I believe that with God all things are possible – He has preformed so many miracles and has affected so many lives.

I believe you get a second chance at life if you believe in God and Jesus as you Savior. I believe that on the inside Jesus works in your life. I believe that Jesus loves me and died for me. I believe that we are major sinners, but that there is no sin that cannot be forgiven and forgotten. I believe that Jesus is the Son of God and that He died for my sins and lives in my heart today.

I believe that the Holy Spirit is Jesus living in my heart. I believe that the Holy Ghost is there to give us hope when we need something or someone to be there for us.

I believe that the Bible is a message from God. I believe that we should spread God’s Word so that everyone will come to know and love the Lord.

I believe we come to church and sing our love song to God. I believe the Church is a place where we bring all our worries and bad things we’ve done and God forgives us. I believe the church should act as one to bring others to know God.

I believe that without God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit life would be miserable and unforgiving. I believe we all need to connect with God, then grow in our relationship with Him, and also share that relationship with others.

Also I would like to get everybody’s mailing address. I know a lot of you have given them to me before, but I know things change (esp. in the summer time) so I would really appreciate it if you would comment with an address I can reach you at this summer. (Yes the comments will be screened so no worries)

Thanks!

Now off to do more getting ready for Asia stuff. Much love! Laters!!

brigger @ 2007-05-04T08:58:00

2007-05-04T13:01:05Z

Life has been hectic even after exams ended ... I have entirely too much stuff!

I haven't been on here much (and don't really know that I will be on here much until July) but I do love you all and hope you are doing well.

Thanks to everyone who has responded to my PDA query, I do want to respond to them (and plan to before I leave) but I just haven't yet ... so I wanted to express my thanks :-)

Kay time to be productive. Have a happiful day!!!

PDA

2007-04-23T17:41:05Z

What sort of displays of affection are ok in public? What sort should never be?

Is it ok to hold hands? What about if fingers brush? Are hugs obnoxious? An occasional kiss on the forehead? An arm around the shoulder? A head rested on a shoulder? A tussel? A shoulder/neck massage? Cracking a back? Poking?

I am just curious what exactly my friends think (especially those with whom I interact with in person). If you don’t feel comfortable attaching your name to your opinion then please comment anonymously….

Is this really the last week of classes?!?!?

2007-04-16T15:00:58Z

More to come as I remember things...

Things I am looking forward to about this week:
~Tuesday night
~Dinner at 7 on Wednesday with Lissa and Reese
~An all-nighter with Catie, Kalli, and probably some GL girls in the kitchen that starts at 9 on Wednesday night
~Shooting for my editorial final (T2p Lisa&Kiesha; F Lee)
~Cru
~Friday
~Capture the flag this weekend
~Printing the first batch of my 365 project

Things I am not so much looking forward to this week:
~A final project due for color theory on Thursday
~A paper for Chacon which I think is also due on Thursday (hence the all-nighter)
~Working on my final for 3D (and finishing this weekend)
~Shooting for my editorial final
~Filling out paperwork
~The fact that I most likely won't get enough sleep and I most likely will drink too much caffeine

Things I feel neutral toward but don't so much have time for:
~Applying for my visa
~Sending out more letters
~Laundry (it is getting critical)
~Getting study kits together

The end of the semester really snuck up on me this year ... whoops ...

getting lost and pondering

2007-04-11T13:51:10Z

So I had a fun morning of driving through the hinter lands a million miles in the wrong direction while trying to get Blair to the airport in time for her flight to Chicago this morning. That was exciting. Somehow, despite the fact that we had to backtrack five trillion years, morning traffic is gross, it was rainy, and their were multiple accidents, she made it through the airport and what have you in time to not miss her flight (which we were seriously concerned about). Of course I ended up being just a trifle late making it back campus in time for work but I got a spot in the loop and that makes me heart happy … *le sigh*

But now I am at the desk with none of my stuff (I couldn’t justify being even more late by running by my room) and not really dressed … I am not unclothed or anything but I am definitely sporting the hoodie, pj pants, and mismatched tevas (I grabbed one new and one old on my way out … that is a special walking experience because as tevas age they compress so my new one is all show like and happy and my old one is barely thick enough to even be a shoe) …

Yesterday Chris and I were talking and he asked me why I talk about my embarrassing moments (like the foot picking thing) if it bothers me that it happened why bring it up all the time. I didn’t so much have an answer for him, but I have been thinking about.

I feel sure at least a little bit of why is simply because there is something inside of me that screams to be the center of attention sometimes. Over the years I have learned how to not give into this screaming dramaqueen as much, but there are times when I feel completely overwhelmed by this need to have the spotlight. Many of the stupidest, most obnoxious, and most regrettable things I have done have occurred within the context of submitting to that desire.

But it is more than just wanting attention. In fact, I really think that is only a mildly contributing factor. I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that personal secrecy breeds shame and all other manner of grossness within my life. It is by talking about the things that embarrass me most that I diminish their power over me. By telling everyone myself I don’t have to dread the possibility of people finding out some other way.

Admittedly, if I had not talked about the whole foot picking incident it is unlikely that it would have ever come up again. I am not sure that Chris or Michael noticed, and I feel like both his mom and the lady I was meeting are likely too southernly polite to ever bring it up even if they did notice and remember. But in the off chance that it did come up again, I could laugh about it and not be as likely to emote negatively.

By talking about stuff to the whole world I get a chance to process through my emotions in small doses peppered with laughter. That way if whatever the embarrassing/upsetting moment comes up again I will be less likely to express a lot of negative emoting. And since I feel that it is rarely helpful to be spouting off negative emotions all over the place, I am a big fan dealing with them solo as much as possible.

I also just like to be real about who I am. I spent so much time in my past trying to pretend I was this person I wasn’t. I am sick that. I am sick of trying to make people like me by being the “brandi” I think they want me to be. The only way I know to combat that is to be as honest as possible about what I do and who I am. If you like me, I want the me that you like to be the real me.

I am sure there are other factors too but Courtney has been here for a while sooooooooo I will stop now. Laters!

assorted ramblings ....

2007-04-09T22:56:10Z

So I just realized how incredibly depressing my last post was, and felt like I needed to reassure you that I haven't gone emo ... life is mostly amazing right now, I just don't always sleep as much as a should (a little bit because this is the most demanding course load I have ever had and a little bit because I am a compulsive people person and have trouble not loitering around the amazing friends I have ... especially the one I am dating, he is just fun to be around) and as a result I tend to feel like everything is a very big deal ... in short I just do a lot of emoting all around.

The point of all of that is, no matter how emo (or emu if you like) my posts may sound my life is in fact not horrible or anything else like that ...

I had a happy weekend. I ended up spending the weekend with Chris and his family. I kind of forget how socially awkward I tend to be until I am meeting new people and I do things like pick at the splinter in my foot right after I shake your hand and we are standing around talking.... I think a lot of it is because I just don't always think about what I am doing until I am observing myself doing it. Fortunately their are in fact people in the world who are ok with that.

Anyway it was a good weekend. I like his family, they aren't super intimidating and they don't seem to loath me, (in fact I am now friends with both of his cousins on facebook) so I feel like this is a good start.

I watched the first two disks of the first season of smallville ... fortunately not all at once because after one disk I need to take a break. But I did like it. I can see what the hype (and by hype I mean the strong devotion of Joy and Chris) is about. I don't know if I share it per say, but it is a fun show...

I entered three works for the undergraduate juried show. None of them made it, but I am glad I at least tried.

I am cautiously optimistic about my clay piece that is going to be critiqued tomorrow. It is 2" under the requirement but I am rather fond of it. It may be one of the best things I have done for this class. (which is exciting because every project to date has been my best to date for her ... who knows, maybe I am actually learning - gasp!) I am also looking forward to what my group is doing for our final installation piece - a fact that really does surprise me because the thought of a collaborative last project was not one I was initially thrilled by, but I love the direction we are going in.

I have literally no idea where I stand in my 2D class ... I just really hope I pass it because I can not handle retaking this mug. At this point I don't even care what grade it is, so long as it enables me to take my color photo class next semester. I am mildly apathic about my GPA since life runs out this year anyway (not that I am in much danger of dropping below that 3.0).

Editorial is working well. We just got our final project assignments and I am kind of excited about it. I am less thrilled about getting my portfolio revised but, it will be good for me to tighten everything up. Phil seems overall pleased with the work I am doing, hopefully I can bring together a strong finish.

My petition failed so I will have to take another science class ... bringing me up to at least 19 hours of science for my photography degree ... I don't mind learning but dang it I wanted to take as many photo studios as physically possible my last semester here. But I am sure I will be ok. Who knows how this class (or the people I meet through it) will shape me for good ...

Cinnimon and I are meeting for lunch tomorrow. That makes me ridiculously excited. I feel like I don't spend enough quality time with the women in my life who don't live on the garden level.

I had sushi for lunch and a sub for supper ... :-D I decided to spoil myself today ... I also took a nap and that was wonderful. *le sigh* muy wonderful!

And now it is off to the desk. Far thee well my patient and wonderful friends. I love you all and hope your day has at least one little ray of sweet sunshine beaming down. *sb*

my Lancelot

2007-04-02T17:56:41Z

Sometimes I feel overwhelmed by an unquenchable desire to be the center of attention and I do stupid and unloving things. I am sorry.

I am very thankful for friends who love me enough to overcome the discomfort of confrontation and call me out about the junk they are noticing in my life. Even if I don't agree with you I love the fact that you love me enough to say something, I am slow sometimes and stubborn often. Sometimes I have to hear something from five different people before I am ready to change. I am sorry about that too, but I am very grateful to those who are willing to keep trying - I know you don't have to you could just up and ignore me ... it would be a lot easier.

we are all like Guinevere

2007-04-02T13:37:22Z

So the new icon is quite possibly my new favorite picture of myself … I don’t know why, but I really just love it sooooooooooo it is showing up everywhere :-D … I actually sent a copy to parentals and grandparentals … my Grandpa replies asking if the shirt was in anyway related to Chris … I need to reply to that, let him know it was in fact a pre-Chris shirt …

Anne spent the weekend with me … which surprisingly resulted in more sleep and productivity than usual – I guess I was trying to be good influence or something. We did yard sit at the lake and that was woooooooooooooooonderful. I worked on my sculpture while she watched Mission Impossible and Rush Hour on my laptop. We looked at colleges (which excites me more than I can express because prior to this her post-highschool plans have been to join the army and drive a tank because it seems “cool”) and she has found about 11 she wants to look into more closely… Also my adopted family took us out for lunch on Sunday. That was nice.

So I have got to kick the squirreling habit … I have definitely squirreled during multiple inappropriate moments in the past few days (the most notable being during a prolonged quiet time for prayer and reflection at Cru/BCM on Thursday and during worship yesterday). Unfortunately the squirreling is getting worse instead of better, particularly if I am pondering, it has kind of begun to act like a sigh …

Speaking of worship and pondering… yesterday at MC^3 we were taking communion and for some reason I started to think about Arthurian legend (specifically as it is portrayed in Camelot and First Night ), at first I was mildly annoyed with my distractibility. Then I had a vague remembrance of some manner of CS Lewis quote about Arthurian legend evidencing the desire for a Messiah, a foreshadowing of Christ … I don’t know about the quote but it got me thinking how we are all like Guinevere. We make the choice to be an adulteress and betray the love of our King for a few moments of pleasure. The law of land is strict about treason, treason must be punished by death. But unlike Arthur, the King that we betrayed was not content to passively watch us be tied to the stake we earned for ourselves, hoping that Lancelot will steal us away and save us. No, this King acknowledged that death must pay for our treason against him, but he choose to die that death for us (thankfully our King was strong enough to defeat death after three days). Our King always knew we would betray him, he feels the sting of our treason against him every time we choose our Lancelot (even if Lancelot isn’t completely bad, Lancelot still isn’t our husband and King) over him.

Anyway … I don’t know if that makes sense … it was just a pondering I was kicking around yesterday. But now I will sip my amazing raspberry green tea and try to accomplish some stuff.

Much love and *sb*!

PS - youthfire is rocking my world this morning and I watched Glory Road last night and I FREAKING LOVED IT!

post veggie sub ramblings ....

2007-03-29T16:33:11Z

You know you are becoming a bit of an art kid when you ponder typefaces as you read ... especially if this isn't a one time incident.

I need to get better about checking voicemail ... I listened to them during my break and I had 7 and I didn't even realize some of these people had called me at all ... whoops!

I have my passport ... the picture is horrible beyond words but it excites me to hold it.

Today is one of perhaps five times this entire year that I have worn pj pants in public ... it is also the first day of the MUN confrence so as I walk to class in mismatched pjs and a paint covered hoodie, cradling a coffee pot I find myself having to weave through cute little high schoolers all dressed up.

I just consumed lunch in less than 30 min and I didn't think that was a physical possibility for me.

I have been rather hyper-emotive lately, buuuut overall life is great (then again I just had a good 3d class time because for the first time ever I don't feel like I am the least competent person in the room ... so I may think that my life is completely wretched by the time I get out of 2d).

A stranger just walked by and I burped in his general direction ... it was already half-out by the time I looked up and noticed him. On that note I need to go take care of some editorial stuff.

sex

2007-03-25T13:55:25Z

So I just read an interesting article by Betty Blake Churchill (I don’t know if she is southern, but her name sure sounds like it) and I wanted to share an excerpt from it ...

The World Health Organization estimates that there are 100 million sex acts performed worldwide every day. That seems like a whole lot of somethin’ goin’ on. I know you’re think it, so let me do the math for you. There are 6.2 billion people in the world. Divide that by ... that’s actually only about 2 percent of people having sex every day. So, really, not so much goin’ on as one might think.

Regardless of participation, sex seems to consume a lot of people’s brain energy – apparently guys think about sex every seven seconds or some preposterous statistic like that. (If that’s actually true, how does anything ever get done in this world? I mean, really ... seven seconds?!) People are driven by it, pay for it, sacrifice for it, are controlled by it, even kill for it. Wars have been started over it. (Granted, not your major world wars, more like tribal disputes and such – but wars nonetheless).

Is it really just those few seconds of pleasure that are so powerful? What is the power of sex? I’m going to wager that it’s more about the emotions and meaning connected to the act – the intimacy, the passion, the sense of being as close to a person as you can possibly be for just a few moments.

For the record, I would be intrigued to discover how the WHO determines the number of sexual acts preformed daily, and I would be even more intrigued to discover how one ascertains how often a person thinks about sex. What do they do, give people a button to push every time they think about sex like one of those little counter dealibobs? Statistics fascinate me ...

feet and art

2007-03-24T00:53:25Z

So I talked to my new AD today and it is offical, my building assignment will be having an arts themed hall, and it is tenatively mine. I am so excited! I mean I am still sersiously looking into a slightly different Res Life job but either way I am super stoked about next year. Like insanely!!

I sustained yet another foot injury. With the exception of fencing bruises (which I haven't gotten lately because I have only had time to fence once this entire semester) I feel like my feet take more abuse than any other part of my body ... it seems to be an annual thing ... first I burned it sliding down a pole while Megan, Ashely and I were chillin at the playground; then I got a hard core carpet burn on the top of my foot fighting for a water gun with KtB and Chris; then I tore the junk out of it in Seattle on the way to breakfast - all of these have left some manner of scar on my foot. Then tonight I took my sandles off to go down a slip-n-slide of giant amazingness and the first thing I stepped on was a sharp stick pointing in the air ... it is kind of gross looking ...

I did a lot of pondering today. It was nice.

Kim and Jen and I were walking back from the lake (less than thrilling when your foot is punctured) and we had the most fun shooting seeds at each other.

K. Now I am off to make use of the fifty trillion things I brought to the desk with me...

brigger @ 2007-03-21T19:49:00

2007-03-22T00:30:14Z

I have a 2D project (the same one I lost so much sleep over before break) due (for real this time) tomorrow. And I am kind of sick of so having some trouble motivating myself to start.... It might be a full blown all-nighter. Good thing I have 39oz of coffee grounds (but I better remember to drink water in between so I don't get dehydrated again).

Blah. I am so sick of looking at it.

In happier news I had the most amazing salad for dinner tonight - romain, sprouts, spinach, carrots, cheese, sunflower seeds, cucumbers, green peppers, asparagus, raisins and a half french half ranch dressing. SO GOOD! I think the asparagus and the dressing (which was mostly because I didn't want too sweet of a salad but I had already put some french on there at the point of this decision) are what pushed it from an ok salad to a blogable salad. *le sigh* so good!!!!!

One more thing and then I am peacing out to work on my 2D project of unending doom and grossness .... or one of the many other things due for the same class tomorrow ... we are concurrently [and erratically] working on over three distinctive projects right now, and although that keeps the 6 hours we spend in class per week from getting boring (because you never ever know what you will be doing in class - it make time management that much more taxing because not only do you have to balance all your different classes (like 2 other studios, 1 art history class with a professor who is amazing when he shows up but rather unreliable in arriving on time or at all, and 1 anthro class that class that is on the verge of turning me into a vegetarian) but you also have to balance fifty trillion things within a single class because he sees no reason why it isn't ok to require that we come to class tomorrow with:

-a completed painting for final crit
-a 10x10 grid with its 6x6 core "filled" with collage (introduced two classes ago and assigned last class)
-a completed "choice" collage (introduced/assigned last class)
-a "groupie" collage 1/3 of the way completed (also introduced/assigned last class)
-and vogue (in case he hands out a new collage assignment)

We are also supposed to critique the 4 letterform collages that were due last class.

Their is absolutely NO PHYISICAL WAY to do something with all that is assigned for any given day in class; but since you never know for sure what his priority (or mood) will be you have to make sure it is all done, because his policy is that if you come to class unprepared for whatever it is that he decides to do you are told to leave and you are marked absent ... since he also has a policy that more than 3 absences = automatic F it is kind of a problem.

All that whining being said, I do enjoy his class and I am definitely learning a lot from him and I would trade this experience for many things BUT I would challenge anyone who doubts the rigor of a studio art program (or at least ours at any rate) to try and survive just one month in this class ... (note: this is why I get irritated with the people who give me an "That sounds like FUN" response to hearing I am an art major! ugh!! but usually I just try to civilly retort with something along the lines of "I love it, but I have to say I got a lot more sleep and had so much more free time when I was a math major" and that is pretty effective because the word math is so scary to so many people)

BUT ANYWAY ... the one more thing I was talking about was these two verses that have been on my mind the past couple of days:

"Whoever believes in the Son has eternal life; whoever does not obey the Son shall not see life, but the wrath of God remains on him" -John 3:36 ESV

"Notice how God is both kind and severe. He is severe to those who disobeyed, but kind to you as you continue to trust in his kindness. But if you stop trusting you also will be cut off" -Romans 11:22 NLT

I just think it is interesting because in both verses it places words in opposition in ways that I ordinarily would not (and by ordinarily I of course mean that I don't think I ever would have) ...

I mean wouldn't the logical opposite of belief be disbelief; and of disobedience, obedience?

But it was seem that John is inseparably linking belief in Christ with obedience to him (which is an theme in many places throughout the new testament ... I can't think of precise references, but I will look for them later if anyone would be interested [like after I am done with 2D!]) and then Paul seems to be implying that to trust is to obey.

And I guess that makes sense. If you absolutely trust someone, then doesn't it logically follow that you will do what they tell you? If I trust that you love me enough to want what is best for me AND that you fully know what that best thing is, then I would have no reason not to obey you because I would understand that with that obedience I would get to experience that best thing ...

Anywoo ... thats my piece ...

PS - I got my placement (building not room number) for next semester and they moved me to the vault. It should be fun. A definite change of ... well everything (which kind of would have happened even if I stayed here so it will be easier to deal with it in a different environment I think). I am excited that I will be working with Chantelly, and super close to the art building. I am sad that it is rather unlikely that I will have room for my recliner, but excited about the hall I may potentially get (no more on that until I can hear about it from one of the big guys).

Kay. My "one more thing" took longer than the rest of the entry ... I feel like Columbo.

Now I am for really peacing out. Laters!!!

another desk update ...

2007-03-20T00:21:30Z

After painting from 1:30ish until 7:30ish I am more physically exhausted and on the verge of collaspe than after my 46min tae bo tape ... and the worst of it is that I only got 3 pieces done ... my goal/plan was 15 ... I think I will try to do at least one more before bed and then do them in the morning ... blarg!

If I wasn't on call I think I would pass out right after the staff meeting ...

Despite what this may seem, it has been a good day. I am just exhausted. Already.

This was supposed to be short ... but that didn't so much happen ...

2007-03-19T13:03:12Z

I am back at school now... sitting in my little box in the lobby until 11 (well it will likely be a tish later because Courtney works after me and regardless of what time she gets here and how much I may or may not need to be getting done I cant help but staying to talk)

After some moderate success over break, I have decided to give to-do listing a go. The plan is to go over my planner in the morning and figure out what (in manageable and specific terms) I should endeavor to accomplish for the day ...

I am beginning a new personal photo project. I am pretty excited about it ... I may post details later (if you for some unknown reason absolutely must know track me down and I will let you know) ...

I have discovered an amazing new food combination - frosted mini-wheats with cream cheese on the non-frosted side (it is a variation on my long standing snack of mini-wheats and peanut butter) ... I am a pretty huge fan. Up side: it dirties practically no dishes and I have a good sized supply of mini-wheats, and by virtue of it containing a cheese product it is a good source of calcium and protein (and the protein is super important as I have started eating a lot less meat than I used to ... I will go multiple days without it - it isn't intentional, meat just doesn't appeal to me as much as it used to and I have never been a super big meat eater). Down side: I don't have much cream cheese and it is not a non-perishable food so I cant keep 6lb of it in my room indefinitely (like I do with peanut butter and most food products because I am a rather large fan of sams club).

I had something else I wanted to ramble about, but I got so excited about cream cheese that I forgot it ... oh wait I just remembered - I LOVE HAWK NELSON!!!! I have always kind of liked them, but after being able to see them perform twice they have solidified their place in my top-ten, which makes the fact that I was able to get their autograph (in my journal because I didn't really have anything else handy) very nice.

stuff and such ....

2007-03-16T15:37:34Z

I am still home for break (only 3 more days) and it is nice. Although this break hasn't been as restful or as productive as I had hoped it would be it has been nice and it has definately been a change of pace.

I finally did my tae bo tape this morning and it was far more doable than I thought it would be .... but now my arms and legs are begining a rebellion. But that is ok because it feels so nice to have finally done it ...

I have an appointment to get my passport at 4:15 today. That is exciting.

I have a lot on the docket for today, so I best get moving ... I just wanted to venture a quick hello.

The crowds were right ... I did in fact make it ...

2007-03-10T03:08:22Z

It was a very long week. Perhaps the longest and most stressful I have had ever.

But it is over now and I am home.

I have spent my day jamming out to some Five Iron Frenzy amazingness that just happened to appear at the front desk for me. *le sigh*

Tomorrow Mom is taking me shoe shopping. On the one hand I am not a huge shopper but since I don't so much have shoes deviod of holes, I am overall looking forward to the outing.

Now I shall watch Numb3rs with Grandma.